I dunno why, but I made a playlist of my life. So Imma tell you about it. Feel free to listen to it on Spotify while you read about it. Also, try it, and if you do send me your playlist. I’d love to hear your lives.
The songs aren’t necessarily in release date order, but I tried to put them in the order that which I binge listened to them. It’s not exact, but it’s pretty close.
- Only A Fool Would Say That – Steely Dan
This album came out the year my mom graduated high school, and it’s one of her all time favorites. It’s one of the earliest albums I remember listening to with my mom. It’s still one of my favorite albums of all time, and full of memories.
- My Town – Patty Smyth
My first introduction to empowered woman rock. It would leave an imprint. Also off this album is “Sometimes Love Just Ain’t Enough,” a duet with Don Henley. I would later use this as an anthem for why some relationships needed to end.
- A Change Would Do You Good – Sheryl Crow
I was OBSESSED with Sheryl Crow’s self-titled, totally hippie power rock album. I was particularly obsessed with the phrase “chasin’ dragons with plastic swords, Jack off Jimmy, everybody wants more” though I’m not sure I understood this song as a child.
- Head Over Feet – Alanis Morissette
This was one the albums Mom and I listened to the most on our drive up to Colorado from Florida. Long three days wrought with uncertainty. We’d go on to live in a hotel for a while, and then finally get an apartment.
- Say You’ll Be There – Spice Girls
I was hardcore obsessed with Scary Spice. All my friends were obsessed with the Spice Girls. They were great. We learned the dances, and I started to have my own opinions about music and what I liked… and that was new for me.
- Bye Bye Bye – NSYNC
Let’s be real, either NSYNC or BSB had to be on this list. It was my golden era of boy bands! But NSYNC was the boy band to rule them all. Still are, if you ask me. I’ll never forget when their Pop album came out and this kid in daycare with me was SO excited about it. He hadn’t been conditioned to know boy bands are for girls yet.
- Say My Name – Destiny’s Child
This song always reminds me of my sisters and hanging out in my step sister’s room. I stole this album from her. She noticed. We weren’t great friends or anything, but I still miss both my sisters sometimes. It’s hard being the estranged sister.
- My Friends Over You – New Found Glory
There’s a track at the end of this album that a “hidden” track. Back in the day, that meant that it was like an hour of silence followed by the track. My step sister and I used this track to scare the crap outta my lil sister and her friend. We told them a ghost story about something and then the track kicks in with this high pitched screaming, and they freaked. It was one of the few times we all enjoyed each other at the same time.
- Benign – Oleander
My mom found this album at Walmart and we bought it based on the album art, because I wanted new music. I bought it totally blind, and it was the beginning of my love affair with the post-grunge movement, and later the grunge movement. They’re still good, too. Saw them a few years back when they came through for their newest album.
- Going Under – Evanescence
I liked Evanescence, but my high school friends ruined it for me for years, because it’s ALL THEY FUCKING LISTENED TO. For years, Amy Lee was fucking everywhere, and I liked her, but I also hated her. Also, Broken is better when it’s just Seether. She didn’t add anything to that song for me. There. I said it. I’ve been waiting for fifteen years to tell people that.
- Young – Hollywood Undead
I have been a fan of Hollywood Undead since they were a Myspace band that sang about banging Tila Tequila, and did duets with Jeffree Starr before he became a beauty icon and got into a fight with Kat Von D. I was really excited when they finally got signed, but I was also surprised… because… I mean they were from Myspace… Lol.
- Redundant – Green Day
Nimrod was an album my mother bought for one song, as you did back in the day. To this day she wants “Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)” played at her funeral. She was not, however, a fan of the rest of the music, so it came my way… and I loved it. This album is a great starter punk album, because it’s pretty soft. This song, in particular, was always my favorite. I had hoped some boy would sing it to me one day.
- Still Waiting – Sum 41
I was totally obsessed with this album and it opened a lot of doors to punk and rock for me. From here I vaulted into Bad Religion, The Offspring, and so many more. It was harder than Green Day, and just a little edgier, and I loved it.
- Home – Breaking Benjamin
Saturate was the very first album I bought with MY money with no parent around. I remember seeing the adverts for it on MTV and desperately wanting it. So much so, that I called my mom and convinced her to let me walk the block and half to Target to buy it, cuz the advert definitely told me it was available at Target. It was such a grand album, and still is. It also marks my entrance into high school…
- Thoughtless – Korn
This was the first album I ever bought alone with my own money that had a parental advisory sticker on it. I was trying REALLY HARD to figure out what music these goth kids were listening to, cuz I was hellbent on getting into this group. I did. It took a lot of research. Lol.
- Lifestyles of the Rich & Famous – Good Charlotte
I’m not above saying I aspired to be an emo/scene kid. Good Charlotte was pop punk at it’s best. I was a little too late to jump on the Blink 182 bandwagon, so this is where I ended up getting on the lame-but-awesome pop punk train, and I rode that shit well into the next decade.
- My Name Is – Eminem
I’d gone to private, Christian schools till 5th grade. I was late to the Eminem phenomena, but fortunately for me, the older kids in high school were all too glad to show me that white kids could love rap, too. We screamed this whole album a lot. Obviously our rage was different than Marshall’s, but we were so full of emotions that we couldn’t always deal with that we just liked the rage, even if it was different from our own.
- Girl Anachronism – The Dresden Dolls
The great thing about doing all the research was that I learned a lot of these goth kids were god damn nerds. We rocked pop punk, emo, and even musicals. So, when I discovered The Dresden Dolls, it didn’t hurt my cred to be the angry piano music girl. I drove around and BLASTED this song all over campus and anywhere else we went. People started to know me by it.
- Superbeast – Rob Zombie
Tape Man stole my fucking CD player. I know because I stole it back from him. I don’t remember what I lost when he took it, but this album was what I gained when I stole it the fuck back. I often dared him to bring up I had his CD, and he never did… like the smart man he was not.
- Foolish – Ashanti
The 2000s were a prime hip hop decade. JaRule, Ludacris, Missy Elliot… Beyoncé broke off of Destiny’s Child… It was a good decade, and I would sit in class and listen to KS 107.5, the biggest hip hop channel in Colorado, instead of paying attention… because let’s be real… it was weird I was in class to start with. My ass never went to class.
- ATWA – System of a Down
I’d gone to Florida to see family. It was one of the last time I’d see my grandma, and my aunt had signed up for this CD subscription service. They just sent her stuff. When I showed up in a lot of black, blaring all this nu-metal, she was like, “here.” Toxicity was a great album, and it’s still one of my favorites.
- (s)AINT – Marilyn Manson
I didn’t get that much into Manson until the Golden Age of Grotesque album. I know that’s heckin’ late to the game, but it’s how things happened. This song, in particular, was the anthem of Lea. She was my best friend, and I was totally in love with her like the psycho I definitely was. She was straight, and Mormon, so it didn’t go anywhere, but I was just in love with being around her. It killed me when she dropped me, but I’m back to a point where this song doesn’t hurt anymore. Just took like 8 years.
- Toxic – Britney Spear
D1 loves Britney. He’s always loved Britney. He will always love Britney. We listened to Toxic a lot in his apt, drunk on box wine. We also gave a lot of lap dances to it… It was a thing we did for a while: lap dance contests. The judge was usually whatever guy I was dating or had just brought with me. We were obscene.
- Metro – The Vincent Black Shadow
I don’t remember how I got into this band, but I fell for them hard. This song shows up on the soundtrack for a movie called Feast. Also on that album is a song called “Don’t Come Back.” D1 and I bet that this was during a really awful chase scene, so we found and bought the movie to prove it. The movie is bad in a great way. So we also watched the other two Feast movies. Best 6 hours of your life you’re never going to get back.
- Hey Jude – The Beatles
I had a boyfriend named Robbie that would sing this to me. He even played it for me on the piano. I really liked Robbie, but Robbie had problems. Drug problems. Parent problems. Self identity problems. Homelessness problems. It was too much for me. I deserved better, but I haven’t forgotten him to time.
- Love Is Paranoid – The Distillers
When I was really trying to figure myself out, The Distillers were a big part of my life. I did a lot of soul searching to their Coral Fang album. I feel like they’re responsible for some of my better nuances.
- I Don’t Love You – My Chemical Romance
Are there people who weren’t emotionally and spiritually touched by The Black Parade? If so, they’re missing out.
- Zombies Ate Her Brain – The Creepshow
I was dating a severe alcoholic, that was technically still married, from Wyoming, that loved rockabilly music, and this was Travis’ ringtone. I couldn’t love Travis enough to fix him. There was a lot of baggage… Still, I loved his kids. I took them to Zoo Lights, and birthday parties… I really liked spending time with them.
- Tear You Apart – She Wants Revenge
This song is all Traci. Traci was my boyfriend’s roommate. We were best friends for a long time. I’d been seeing Vaunder, and his roommate when we started dating was an asshole. His fiancé was Traci. We had so many adventures, and I loved her kids, and it was all drama and fun. Over time things changed. the asshole roomie was shunned, and later killed himself. Her kids grew up, and she hooked up with a guy that she really wanted to make a life with. We grew apart then, because she was being an adult, and I wasn’t there yet. Still… great memories.
- Santa Clara Twilight – Tiger Army
After Traci went off to be an adult, I did soul searching again… to a lot of rockabilly. Tiger Army is just a good band, and I binge listened to them while I tried to figure myself out.
- OK, It’s Alright With Me – Eric Hutchinson
At the beginning of my relationship with Mike, this song was everywhere. He moved in, and all I wanted at the time was for this to be my last relationship. Again, though, I couldn’t take the baggage. So much baggage…
- Kept On Walking- Rehab
Rehab was Mike’s favorite group. He had drug problems, and I guess they just spoke to him. I pushed Mike out of my life, but I kept the music… because I didn’t have drug problems, but Rehab was about more than that. Rehab was something I listened to so I could process the failure. It was a big failure. I was alone, and I had pushed a lot of people away, lost friends, and my life felt empty. When they came through I made my then-boyfriend, Grant, go to the show with me, cuz he liked rap. He hated the show. It wasn’t his kind of rap. Lol.
- Sheer Madness – Polkadot Cadaver
The album I wanted by Pdot isn’t on Spotify. I wanted this to be Haunted Holiday, but Sheer Madness was a good song, so we’ll keep it. Polkadot Cadaver was the first concert I went to at a small bar in Denver. Traci DRAGGED me there, and I ended up loving the scene and loving them. It opened a whole new social door I would lean on as time when on and things changed.
- Secrets On Our Lips – Astronautalis
Grant’s favorite artist was Astronautalis. When we got into it, Grant got cheated in our relationship. He was looking for forever, and I just wasn’t. He was great, and I have nothing bad to say about him, but I knew he wanted family and marriage, and after the last disappointment, I knew I wasn’t going to be ready for that for ages, so I cut him loose. I’m happy to report he found himself a wife, and he seems very happy now, but sometimes I miss having someone so steady and solid in my life. He was my rock for a while.
- Moonbase Blues – Crunk Witch
After Grant, I didn’t date much. I just enjoyed being single for the first time in my life, and really embraced doing things alone. I went to concerts alone. I went to the KBPI car show alone. I really found my independence, and Crunk Witch was there for me. I saw them in a small bar in Denver, and I was the ONLY PERSON THERE. It was a weirdly magical experience. You haven’t really experienced a performance until it is JUST FOR YOU. They were great. They played everything I wanted to hear and chatted casually to me afterward. I’ll never forget it.
- Melody Dean – Amanda Palmer & The Grand Theft Orchestra
Before Billie left for Oregon, we went to an Amanda Palmer concert together for this album. She went to the album signing and brought me the signed album. We had a great night and it was a killer concert with a packed venue. It killed me when she left for Oregon, but I’ll always have that concert as a great memory.
- Dressed In Dreams – Brody Dalle
Brody Dalle broke out on her own from the Distillers, and I grew even more. I was obsessed with this album. Everything about it screamed to me, and I couldn’t help but listen to it over and over and over again. Another one of those albums I kind of found myself to.
- Beside Myself – Glass Delirium
Glass Delirium was D2’s band. I followed them for years, and it was only after they kind of defected that D2 became a part of my actual life. This song is from their first album, now out of print. I remember seeing them on a stage, all glitter and goth, and just bathing in the cliché glory of it all. I’m still sad they’re not a thing anymore, and D2 isn’t making music anymore.
- Terrible Things – Brick + Mortar
I went through a dark phase, where every morning was hell. I didn’t like being alive, I didn’t have good reasons to get out of bed, but I made it through. Along the way was Brick + Mortar. Even their sad songs have a boppin’ beat, man. It helped. It gave me ASMR feels and even though I didn’t know them, I wasn’t alone in my sadness, and that made all the difference.
- Light It Up ( feat. Nyla & Fuse ODG) – Remix — Major Lazer
This is where I am right now. I’m not perfect, but I’m doing well. I’ve fallen into this electronic and dance music hole, and I think it’s good for my mental health. Any doctor would say music that makes your body move is probably good for you, I think.
Obviously, I couldn’t fit ALL the songs from my life on a 40 song list… so here’s the honorable mentions.
- When The Lights Go Out – Five
During my boy band phase, I loved Five. They were Irish, so it was different from the NSYNC/BSB battle that was oh so prevalent everywhere. I felt exotic. I was a dumb kid… but the feelings were real.
- Blame It On The Weatherman – B*Witched
Another Irish teeny bopper band… and I loved them. They were all I listened to one summer when I was trying to figure out how to fit in with the other girls at my babysitter’s place. We were vastly different, and I was not yet a real human being with a sense of self.
- Southwest Voodoo – Insane Clown Posse
This is the song that was playing when I backed into a cop car. My first every accident, on senior ditch day in 12th grade. I have refused to listen to ICP in the car ever since… and while they get a lot of hate, I can admit I still like them in a nostalgia kind of way.
- Violent Pornography- System of a Down
I didn’t wanna put people on the list twice, but this song was a god damn banger. D1 was moving away from rock, and he was STILL into it. We would drive around playing “go that way” or “follow that person” and just blast this ish… It was a good time, our car rides.
- Thank God I’m Pretty – Emilie Autumn
I had this stint where I spent a lot of time with this kid Justin. He was a friend of Vaunder’s, younger than us, and he was just fun. When he finally got to adult age, we drifted apart. I haven’t talked to him a long time, now, but we used to hang out in his parking garage and sing all kinds of things, from musicals to metal. This was a favorite.
- Nothing Compares 2 U – Sinead O’Connor
In a weird turn of events and questionable life choices, I had an old internet boyfriend that came to visit me. In true Sam fashion, I took him to D1’s place and we had a lap dance contest. I picked this one as a challenge song, and D1 lap danced to it on Vivek. He won, too. He won forever with that one. Hard to top.
- Ghosts – Birdeatsbaby
I tried to drag Bird into my concert life. This was the only show besides the Glass Delirum and 90% Nineties shows she really got into. She gave it a good try, but it just wasn’t her thing.